A friend just sent my a lovely sweet message after reading our girls website. There was nothing too deep or anything in it, but for some reason its just hit a spot in me tonight and now I’m a blubbering mess.
I think it was just seeing their name?? As the time goes by sometimes it almost seems like I dreamed them and maybe they never were here?? Then seeing someone write their names and refer to them just hit my heart for a six.
I hate that this pain never goes away, yet I’m afraid that one day it might.
I hate that we lost our babies, but I thank the lord that they existed at all…
I hate that my son says he’d like a sister, when he already has two, he just can’t see them, play with them or hug them.
Right now I have that terrible ache that goes right up your throat and feels like it might choke me. Its so weird how out of know where these feelings can come to the surface when you least expect them…
Come to me in my dreams tonight my sweet girls, let me hold you in my arms again xo
April 20, 2008 at 6:39 am
Huge hugs
xxx