I was in the car with ME listening to the Guy Sebastion song – ‘Angels Brought Me Here’ which always makes be a bit melancholy. Mainly because I feel it expresses so well my words for JP.
It’s been a long and winding journey, but i’m finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There’s nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes…
My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle…
If you could see, what i see, that you’re the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here…
I could not say this better myself. I like to think that our angels ~Paige and Amy~ sent JP to us especially. And the rest of the words explain themselves.
While I was lost in this song and feeling sad for our angels like I have been so much lately my little ME piped up in the back and said out of the blue “Can we go and visit ~Paige and Amy~”… I nearly fell off my seat. The tears just sprang into my eyes and I had to compose myself to answer, that of course we can, maybe tomorrow.
I swear some times that little man seems to read my mind.
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I can’t figure out how I can be so happy and in love with JP, yet feel so lost and aching for P and A. How can that be? I think that I’m starting to really understand that no matter how many babies you have you can never replace those you lose. Like losing anyone you love I suppose, nobody else can ever fill the place of those that we love that are no longer here.
I know I will move out of ‘this place’ I’m in soon. I always do, although never completely. Nobody even knows I’m here, afterall I’m not there on the outside, only on the inside…
